had a realli long week ... and a long day yesterday! hmmz... where to start...
yesterday had bio test first thing in da morn... it was so so lah.. but the essay questions... like all asking the same things!! haha. so... just write everything i know lor. then had xtra chem lect and maths tuto.. everyone was so dead for maths lor. like... stoning. and xinyong was making funny noises and was acting realli strangely. too stressed liao. i mean... hu here isn't. then had cca as usual.
after that went bugis wif rachelle humairah wenfeng xueli mengyang. had to shop for retro clothes lor. in de end the one i bought wasn't realli retro. buy so retro for what? onli wear one day. yupx... it was soooo hot there. perspired like mad. alrite. went long john eat @ 315pm. first meal of the day. then had to leave them for church. hahaha.
reached at arnd 4.45pm. slept all the way in the mrt. haha. shall fast forward. hmmz.. we had to fold the newsletter.. then while i was folding.. folding.. goodness that verse jumped out on me again! i was like... stunned! it was printed on the back page of the newsletter.
2 Corinthians 4-16
Therefore we do not lose heart. Although outwardly we are wasting away, inwardly we are being renewed day by day.
i was like.. goodness! 2nd time! wah. stunned tio. was super tired already lor. then saw that verse and wahlah.. felt a little better. sat through the musical rehearsal while joanne deb deb audrey i were folding folding.... wah. so nice can. all the lil kiddies so cute!! haha... we were saying.. what a waste lor... those who cant see it. hmmz..
*fast forward*......
musical ended at 10 or 10 plus. then hung arnd @ fellowship deck till 1130pm! wah. so tired already. was stoning. and stoning. went home slept 12 plus. ahaha... today FL was super mega lah. shiok!
tmr gotta wear RETRO clothes to school lor. and dance on stage. goodness. tmr school will end at night... then tuesday wednesday no school :)
... am looking forward to musical. cool. haha... :)

to others ... a heart of love
to myself ... a heart of steel

i'll always remember last friday....

"For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul. Discretion will protect you, and understanding will guard you. Wisdom will save you from the ways of wicked men, from men whose words are perverse. who leave the straight paths to walk in dark ways.. "
Proverbs 2:10-13
what a suitable verse to cool me down man. "you bunch of fools" still ring somewhere in my mind. aniwaes. yesterday was so tired cos slept at 1am on monday nite.. did GP oral presentation all by myself lah. wif meng yang's and xue li's help here n there. then yesterday reached home... started abit on bio tuto then cannot tahan go sleep. 630 slept till 730.. ate dinner then went back sleep at 8pm. slept till 12 plus then woke up do hw and study a lil. went back sleep at 2.30am. oh wellz.
i realli dunno what MJ is doing lor. gonna have maths lecture test next saturday... and it includes integration. includes integration when we havent even finished the topic! we'll onli like finish it next week... and not have time to go thru the tutos and they're gonna test us? like.... dotx.
thank God for dis verse tho...
"We do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. "
2 Corinthians 4:16

today sux lah okay. totally sux. i'm very pissed and angry now.. so i wont bother about manners or ethics or wateva. i'm just gonna type whateva i hafta let out so forgive me.
today. tuesday. longest time-table. so tired. wrote my worst compo during GP. i'm so gonna fail it okay. maths lecture is going so fast i gonna cry soon. failed bio test horribly. i'm gonna fail chem too. but the worst is yet to come.
one whole long day in school. finally we walk out of the school gate troubled and tired. all 8 of us. waited at the traffic light for awhile. then crossed while the red man was on. our biggest mistake ever. after crossing the road. reached the other side. 2 male discipline teachers hollered us back.
OI ALL 8 OF YOU
COME BACK HERE
DONT BOARD THE BUS
COME BACK
went back in front of the indian and the chinese.
what is the basic thing you all must do when you're crossing the road?
just tell me.
the very basic thing.
wait for the green man
yes! and did you all do that??
no. sorry.
and that indian teacher. looked at me. he takes the same train every morning so found me familiar. started accusing me.
YOU. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I CAUGHT YOU ALREADY?
HUH? 3 OR 4?
i looked at him. hello???? 3 or 4? you caught me? doing what?? i've never gotten into trouble before lor! what on earth are you blabbering about???
me? never!
ARE YOU SURE? NEVER?
shook my head.
then the chinese teacher started his yelling. right in the middle of everything. everyone. 8 of us stood there.
YOU ALL SO OLD ALREADY.
YOU BUNCH OF FOOLS!
CAN'T THINK FOR YOURSELVES IS IT? HAR?
WHAT DID MISS LAI SAY? HAR?
IF YOU JAYWALKED SOMEWHERE ELSE WE WONT BOTHER. BUT YOU JAYWALKED RIGHT IN FRONT OF US.
like we had eyes behind....
IF YOU ALL GET BANGED DOWN HOW? WE BOTH WILL GET INTO TROUBLE YOU KNOW? THE SCHOOL WILL COME AND FIND US! THEN IT BECOMES OUR PROBLEM!
WHAT CLASS ARE YOU ALL FROM? TELL YOUR TEACHER TOMORROW. OK GO GO GO!
great. we'll all probably get called out tomorrow morning. to stand in front at the flag pole to let people see what a horrible bunch we are. life rocks. yes, yes. we all are fools. what were we thinking when we were choosing jcs. sigh.
okay. anger let out. scolding ppl can realli b tired. i've still got GP presentation to do now. what to do? life rox. life. rox.
got promo time table today. mj's gonna extend term 4 till nov 25th. tell me which other jc does that. how nice. that means 3 people from jyc committee cant go. 1 month of "holiday".
gonna see that indian teacher tmr morning on the train again. every morning, hoards of jc students dont wait for the green man at the mrt traffic light. and he just stands there pretending not to see. i tink guilt will wrench his heart tomorrow.
for now. God grant me strength. all the saturday tests are slowly but surely killing me.
*finally finished my poem for mrs yong*
then i am still and wait here in the silence
until you come
and sit awhile wif me

Oh Lord... what have i done... what have i done..
its over now... its all over...
i brought this upon myself...

life rox. totally. studied from 6.30 to 10.30pm yesterday... then supposed to wake up at 12.30am to continue studying bio. but somehow the alarm didn't ring and i slept till 5.30am. was and am so dead tired. went sch at 730 today for test... then had BP mentoring... then went orchard forum mall to do CIP. reached home at 7.30. ate only one meal the whole day.
and guess what. wonderful MJC just decided to extend term 4 so our "hols" only start from 26 nov. nice. lovely. was so super fed up with everything on friday lor. was bursting. *thank you for making me feel better dear... you know who you are*
i'm so tired i'm gonna sleep so so well tonite. i just want to sleep.....
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When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up
To more than I can be.

first things first. happy national day singapore!! watched ndp just now.. haha.. kinda usual stuff. marching in and all... then watched entertaining s'pore idol. haha... was suppressing laughter so many times man. saw hsiang ling on tv. haha. yupx...
slacked at home de whole day. woke up at like 10am.. so tired. haha. then accidentally fell asleep just before ndp started. alrite.
haikx. i realli learnt that trials make or break a friendship man. so scary!! but i guess its only then that u can tell who u realli cherish and who you dont...
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praise the name of Jesus
perfect redeemer, star of the morning
yesterday, today and forever
Jesus the same....
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this is home.. truly
where i know i must be
where my dreams wait for me
where the river always flows
this is home... surely
as my senses tell me
this is where i wont be alone
for this is where i know its home

sunday. oh wellz. antioch was realli happening today boy. literally like... everyone was crying?... but it was great lahx. burdens released and all. great refreshing time. CGLs prayed for everyone individually.
then so tired. went home. sleep 2 hrs. haha..
tmr national day. shiok onli. but sometimes like... u so tired wanna sleep longer in the morning... but ur body is so used to waking up at 6 that u cant go back to sleep. like today lah. gosh.
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jesus i believe in you
jesus i belong to you
the reason that i live
the reason that i sing
with all i am

slept 1am last nite. went sch for make-up chem tuto... then did pw... then had meet the parents. wont elaborate. so tired. yawnz... was rather happy yesterday tho.

what happened to us man...
the word "forever" has long lost its meaning
i wish to forget
i want to forget
you promised me once. remember?
maybe that's why.. promises mean nothing to me now

and you lived
and you died
and you rose again on high
you opened the way
for the world to live again
hallelujah
for all you've done

woohoo! feeling rather happy now. cos tmr school so short onli. and lonnngg weekend. super shiok. but as usual.. teachers somehow feel guilty not giving us hw to do so i've got hw. dotx. sch ends at 9am tmr.. *yaay*
oh yah.. sth realli realli farnie happened yesterday.. i still cant believe it. i got a call saying tt i was gonna get a prize today for the chinese movie appreciation thingy.. we were supposed to write hu our hero was in the chinese movie "hero" and why. teacher asked whole class to submit so i just do lor. whoa.... it was so surprising lor. i did it like ani other normal hw and forgot all about it.. so farnie lor! i started laughing and asked her if she got the wrong person. alritez. aniwaes ... so dis morning after flag raising went up receive prize. at first i thot it was like.. top 10 or what get prize... hahaha.... in the end it was onli top 3 get prize leh! not bad eh! hahhahah. farnie. :)
had bio SPA yesterday. we had to deal with fishes lor... but poor fishes. they were in an environment of different temperatures lor... haha. from 10 to 30 degrees. poor things. had to count their breathing rate. gosh.

dont quit
when things go wrong
as they sometimes will
when the road you're trudging
seems all uphill
when the funds are low
and the debts are high
and you want to smile
but you've to sigh
when care is pressing you
down a bit
rest if you want
but dont you quit
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success is failure
turned inside out
the silver tint of the clouds of doubt
and you never can tell
how close you are
it may be near
when it seems afar
so stick to the fight
when you've the hardest hit
it's when things go wrong
that you musn't quit

i'm feelin quite relieved now. tho tired. slept 4 hrs last nite plus all the accumulated lack of sleep over da week. goshh... finished chem and maths test today. maths is a goner lor. totally hopeless at it. chem was better.. (i hope). alot of my classmates didn't even touch the graph papers. hmmz... but i hope my concept is correct lor. if not.... goner. *tired*
gotta start workin on my poem for Mrs Yong... if not will never be done! hmm. yesterday was at mac for lunch wif the N4. haha. we went totally berserk there lor. we laughed and laughed. so embarrasing can. me and meng yang ate the most lor. mcspicy double plus fries plus drinks plus 5 nuggets! all of us felt like vomitting after that during chem prac! we used the coupon with 4 extra value meals.. so we had like.. 20 nuggets! super farnie lor.
finally can rest abit today. but i'm feelin super hungry now. havent eaten anything! waiting for mum to bring back my beef noodles from TM! *growlll*

but from now till the end.. till i see you again... i'll be missing you....