i am officially a FAT PIG. totally appalled AND disgusted at the amount i ate for dinner today. a huge bowl of macaroni PLUS 5 soonkuehs. (gasp now) i feel so huge and tummified. when you see me don't ask if i'm pregnant please.

was supposed to go work today after dropping daniel off at school. however last night he came down with a fever and so this morning first thing i brought him down to da docs. mom told me to go downstairs to a dr. tan, whose clinic is next to 7-eleven. so yeah brought him down. to my horror, on the right and left of the 7-eleven were clinics with dr tans. RIGHT. LEFT. so in the end i went to da one on the right. and i tink i can't claim dan's medicine from dad cos i didn't ask for a receipt. i wanted to, but just didn't. cos dad can claim like some money from office but must have receipt. so now, thanks to me, its 23 bucks from my pocket. and i havent been working!

supposed to meet corinne tomorrow. but from the looks of it, if dan still can't go school tmr then looks like its gotta be off. i'll see how. hmms.

i'm still missing COSI. a few times an hour my mind will drift there, to the villagers, to the experiences there, to the mission peeps. SIGH. no vesper, no hanging out with kids. but i'm just praying that the Lord'll pave the way for me to return next year. cos as of now, i really wanna go back there. looking through some of the pics just makes me.. wanna fly back there now.

to you:
oh how things have changed. you didn't tell me anything, you didn't even talk to me. no i dont deserve any thanks, but the least you could do was i think just encourage me a little. but no. nothing of that sort. you just went around like nothing ever happened, like everything was still the same. and you put on that same act of not wanting to face back to reality, when reality has been thrust in my face by you. and you go along from now on hoping that i'll just take everything in my stride? i really dont know what you're thinking. or maybe its that i know everything you're thinking. and you know, for once it might be grand, to have you understand.

to you:
i made the decision last night to do something different, and i went ahead and did it. but you didn't even say anything or even read it like you promised to. well, it really seems as if God wants me to just simply keep everything ______ _________. i'll fade once more.

i'm back from cambodia. and i'm missing cosi deeply. all the children there, i love them so much really. and i just pray God paves the way for me to return next year :)

truly learnt so much from this trip. so many kids wrote letters to me, and i just can't wait to start writing to them! i love them! sigh it'll be a long 1 year at least, before i can see them again. nevertheless, they're in my prayers always, with a new burden that was never there before, and can never be there till u go cambodia yourself.

throughout the trip was late nights and early mornings. sometimes sleeping 3 hours, sometimes less. but the JOY of the Lord was indeed our strength. and none of us fell seriously ill. thank God!

and right now i'm in the midst of getting my heart back from cambodia.
today watched garfield with daniel in the morning. and selene came over to write her mission trip journal in the afternoon! haha :)

i've realised how derelict my tagboard can sometimes be. like when 1 person tags, everyone tags. then when its quiet its really quiet. weird huh.

okay i'm in the midst of a terribly intense msn convo. till later.

shalom to one and all. life's been nothing but a rush since u last read an entry! from shifting house to church camp to mission trip, WHOA. everything's happening so fast.

shifting house was truly truly draining. physically, mentally, emotionally. well well. at least now we're more settled down, house is repainted, furniture's almost in, carpentry done. yes!

got home from church camp yesterday t'was a good experience i must say. like none other. i enjoyed myself thoroughly & i would say i've grown spiritually. as for the fun, well, it was slightly less fun cos all the usual people weren't there. but nevertheless amanda sikhi charis jansen & i were always perking each other up. and yes i watched the first half of the opening match of world cup! ballack!

i can't believe how time flies. its mid june! i can't believe it at all! neither can i believe the fact that in no time i'll be in the aiport waiting to board the plane. i havent flown in ages. primary school? secondary school? i can't remember. in case you don't already know, i'm off to Cambodia for a mission trip from 13th to 19th. whooah. i'm havin butterflies in my tummy now for i-dont-know-what-reason. well well, all i can say is MUCH MUCH effort has been put into this trip, and we pray His will be done!all the preparations, late nights, i'm more than sure it'll be well paid off :)

so till i return with joy overflowing, take care & if you will, remember me in prayer :)

we are your people
we are your children
we have been born into your kingdom
Father anoint us
set us apart to do your will
send us your vision
your will for Cambodia
bind us together all as one
Spirit empower us OC this hour
send your rain