juz came baq from church. today svc started @ 4pm cos its our anniversary!! and yeah! many more signed up for jyc... haha... total of 52 now. yupyup. its gonna b real bz for us admin this 2 weeks. oh well. last nite meeting ended at like... 1040 and i slept at 1245. yeah..
woke up real late today man.. 1130. haha.. mom and dad and dan went out for breakfast liao. they wanted to go kopitiam but it was too crowded so they ended up at cartel. haha... then they brought baq muffins for me. but it was hard like a rock by the time they got baq... and mom made waffles wif ice cream and honey on top for me!! hahha... and she made a drink... a funny lil drink in a tall cup. i asked her what it was.. and she said.. BLOODY MARY.... got a shock. drank it aniwaes. haha... rather nice.
then did abit of chinese.. and went church.

when destiny calls you...
you must be strong...
i may not be with you...
but you gotta hold on...

lovely saturday morning... haha... din hafta go sch today so yeah... :) last nite went for movie nite @ church.... patch adams... lovely show but quite sad lah.. hmm..
gonna go church do jyc stuff.. photocopying.. then do abit of chinese.. yeah.. my chinese seems to be getting worse and worse lah.. can die. been kinda bz at school doin pw... sigh.. some people ah.. come in late.. and hurry us...do nth and say must by what time finish.. goodness. aniwaes had OP dry run on thursday.. went rather okay lah.. but my voice ah... wah... the moment i said "good afternoon" everyone started laughing. haha... it didn't matter lah. but its so much better now.. after all the medicine and antibiotics... *eeks* the entire week was sounding like some beastly thing... goodness me.
oh no.. cough medicine making me drowsy.. again.. sigh...

oh my goodness oh my goodness oh my goodness!!! i got 55 for maths! tats a... C! oh wow! the entire year i've been getting like.. F and more F... and now i gotta C! oh man! hahaha...
didn't go sch today to collect more papers baq... yesterday voice changed rather badly and was sniffing away... then mom insisted she bring me see doc.. yeah. so at nite went to see.. and doc gave me an mc incase i din wanna go sch today. then was hesitating whether i shld go sch ornot.. hmm.. until dis morn when i awoke wif a fever then decided not to go.. yupx.. then late morning wen feng msged me my results.. and i was like... thank God! hmm... i shld b able to get promoted.. but... i'm still scared there's some kinda calculation error or sth.. then in de end happy for nth. so i'm waiting till i get back the hard copy with the word "PROMOTED" on it before i jump for joy. oh man. the entire thing was so nerve wrecking i could die.
*sniff*
my voice has gone worse.... yeah... much deeper and hoarsier. those hu've heard me talk.. haha.. sorry for scaring u ppl ah. *cough*
alritez. gonna collect speckies later. i'll wear specs to sch tmr.. wait later the fever melt the contacts in my eye then... hmm..
aniwaes.. mom was like praying for my results yesterday morn. then she msged me and asked if results were out... and that she had a feeling i could make it. but she said if i had to transfer or be retained its okay... leave it all up to God. then i was reminded of her super accurate God-given numbers... for those who dunch noe...
she dreamt that i got 236 for my PSLE agg and boom that was the exact no.
this yr while fetching me to sch in the car she suddenly said she'd a feelin i'll get 14 for my L1R5 and boom i got 14....
yeah...
i wanna see the hard copy that says i'm promoted..

my throat hurts. big time. arghx.
only 65% of the J1 cohort can be promoted. i dont want to say animore.
today was such a bad day. sigh.
when 2 people you think you are close to
tell you you are
horrible
crazy
useless
seek help without helping
pampered
....
....
ouch

when your world seems to fall
who is the one standing next to you?

its back to sch today. hmmz. we had intra-house games in the morn... then PW op lecture.. haha.. miss ee is just so funny lah. tho it was 2 periods it went by quite fast. yeah.. then had lunch and the rest of the day was given to us to prepare for our open house on fri. set up stalls.. promote our cca.. lahdeedah. yupx. (all the best to those who want to come mj next year)
checked the op schedule yesterday on IVLE.... whoa.. thank God it didn't clash wif jyc lah! haha... so its.. 4th nov op.. 5th nov chinese paper.. 6th-9th jyc! yeah.. haha.. dun hafta worry about leaving camp and all. :)
haha... jus saw faith on liu xing xiao yuan!... sam's cousin... came to antioch a couple of times.. haha.. interesting
tmr dad's gonna bring us to ponderosa to celebrate dad-mom wedding anniversary... adriel and i were like.. huh what does it hafta do wif us.. and mom said we were the fruits of the marriage... wahhaha... so we're goin tmr. tmr sch finish 530 lor. sianx.

true friendships
can never have a beautiful ending.
because true friendships
are not supposed to have an ending.

hmm... today went out early morning. was supposed to meet cor at 1130 at somerset.. yeah.. haha.. woke up at 1020! took mrt.. and at like 1120 she called me from home! haha... alrite. so she was gonna be late again. so from 1130 i sat there.. and the clock ticked.. and the people passed.. 9 train loads of ppl came and went. and i sat there my eyes closing.. ooh! at the 1oth train load a flustered cor came to me apologising furiously.. *finally* haha. and according to my hp is was.. 12pm. on the dot. alrite...
went to get tix for wimbledon then went eat at KFC.. haha.. yupx.. was so hungry ate so fast! when we stepped into theatre was juz abt to start.. wimbledon's not bad at all! the songs r rather nice too.. haha... din regret watching.. haha... nice. met jake's mom aunty beng lay and yvette there too.
then walked about... and i spent all my money for the very first time!! oh man. we bought birthday prezzies for jill and cor bought for tim too. i oso bought a badge and a burfday card for someone. yeah... *broke*
went home fell alseep on the mrt. on the way home a dog kept following me. got me all worried. cross to the other side of the road oso cross. finally it gave up. *phew*
then at like 6 plus cor msged me asked if i cld call her on her hp now.. saw the msg late.. but still called but she nv pick up. oh well. hope she's okay.. she went for piano lesson... hmm..

alritez... guess that's all for now. tmr another slacking day b4 returning to sch on weds!

haf been very slack on thurs and fri needless to say.. haha. but went church do abit of chinese today cos was bored at home. hmm.. had a rather fun time studying wif deb deb abby. yeah. jake jansen stefan was there too. yupx. then went eat dinner and now baq home.

oh well. got nth much to say today.

i cant believe it
or rather
i cant bring myself to
but i dont have a choice
do i

okay. i cant remember when i last blogged. seems ages ago. hmm. so much has happened during this time... so.. much. cant remember all of it right now... but yeah.
had my last 2 papers today. feelin rather tired. 6 hrs in total of neck bending today. oh well. maths wasn't as tough as i expected it to be.. but getting 50marks is still like.. seems like the distance from here to mars. sigh. chemistry... is a sure failure. F. dont want to say anithing about it. but i'm finally freed from the bondage of promos. havent actually been myself for weeks lah. today can finally let loose.. (not thinking abt the results i'll get)... and sleep in peace. first time i felt so good lah. (not about the exams but the fact that its done and over with)
during these weeks haf been studying in church on friday nites and saturdays. yeah. helps me.. get away from my bed. thanks FL cafe.
hmms. through this horrible time that passed.. i guess i hafta thank some people lah.
God. ultimate strength giver. its only through you that i'm still okay - mentally and physically. for seeing me through all those weeks when i was so upset. yupx.
Dad. for understanding when i literally couldn't talk for the past 3 weeks. sorry when i just found it hard to open my mouth and answer you yah. was rather stressed. thanks for praying for me at 10pm for 3 nites. yeah.
Mom. for your daily massage doses that lasted 15s. haha. though short was somewhat effective. but i guess next time you could like.. not sneak in... come in so quietly and all of a sudden pound on my back. haha... thank you aniwae. thanks for making me special ginseng soup on monday that no one else had! haha. thanks for insisting that we eat my black pepper crab tonite.. saying that timing was important despite your sore throat. and for everything else.
N3. sorry wasnt myself for quite awhile. was stressed. thanks for asking aniwae.
nat. joanne thong. ed. thanks for giving me tips on the various subjects. yeah.. helped me a lil in my studying :)
Selene. thanks for everything.. haha. for accompanying me studying in church.. for alwaes rendering your help... there's so much more i cant write everything here. thanks dear :)
Cor. for your constant encouragements and "you can do it"s. :)
Debng. thanks for encouraging me yeah.. you keep going too yahs. *hug*

to everyone else reading... so sorry my list will go on and on and on... but thank you yah.. each of u played some part in helping me :) thanks.

rather tired now. after all da late nights and everything. yawn. thank God its finally over..

dissolve my heart in thankfulness...
and melt my eyes to tears...

sigh..