just now during dinner dad asked if i had a blog. when i said yes he looked so surprised. then he started asking if everyone and anyone could access my blog, why on earth would anyone want to post your journal for the whole world to see blabla stuff that he asked so many times alr haha. and yes halfway during dinner we heard someone speaking through a loudhailer and we turned to see. and we saw 4 men on a pick-up, 2 standing & 2 sitting. the 2 men standing were each holding a loudhailer, introducing themselves and waving to all of us. each with a "workers party" flag next to them. hahahhah...... everyone at the coffeeshop were just staring and ... staring.

in 1 months' time i'll be in the other house alr. and mom asked me to temporarily stop work in mid may to stay at home and do nothing but pack. my gosh can u imagine me. bending and standing, hair falling all over, huffing and puffing, packing and packing. MY GOSH. so much stuff and junk to clear. well actually much less in comparison to the move here. 9 years of junk were accumulated in the ex-house.

had our second mission trip meeting today. and our newest addtion? ivan tan :) hahahh he just decided less than 24 hrs before our meeting lah. our group is rather big i can say. but hahahha i can already feel the fun we're gonna haf over there! in short, we are one cool bunch :) nat.mei. ivan. ed. sel. dosious. chris. tgnub. biglam. regina. elisa. yourstruly.

got the NUS acceptance letter night before last. was groggily going to bed when dad handed me the A4 brown heavy package with the NUS logo printed on it. hooray! so many things inside my gosh. and rather overwhelming! so.. i kinda think i'll go to NUS. i need guidance!

this morning i got awoken by the terrible sounds of father and daniel singing. singing terribly. my gosh i so wanted to squash them k. 0815 on a saturday morn and they just blast their lungs out singing and going "its good to praise the Lord c'mon! jesus i am thirsty.. won't you come.... (and he forgets the lyrics and just mumbles funny noises)
and when i sleepily & angrily holler to them to forgoodnesssake keep quiet i wanna sleep dad walks into my room and asks me " then after this line is what har?"

i scream in my deep morning voice.
they continue for many more minutes.
and i HOLLER another time pleading with them to forgoodnesssake stop it and BOTH of them walk to my door and start blasting into my room. :(

okay... i'm studying music now. listening to songs and studying the music. right.

on another note, i'm halfway throught the GLORIOUS APPEARING. whoa its really drama. in the book, Jesus just descended from the clouds, appearing on a white horse with his army behind Him. and finally i realised the meaning of "author and finisher of our faith". indeed.

just the other day we (dad mom i) were casually talking about me and uni, and it seems that i might have to go abroad to study at some point. hmm. that thought really struck me. i never ever thought that i'll ever have to go overseas. well, it was just a drifting thought so i shan't think so far!

i kind of think i've come to a stage where relationships dont matter THAT much to me anymore. unlike the past, i dont get upset at certain things, i no longer feel that kind of hurt when something turns sour. i'm easy. friends come, friends go. and if they're meant to stay, they'll stay. so easily said right? but it doesn't seem hard to digest now. that's me for you.

the 9 o clock show is. wow. off to watch.

okay so i didn't get my full leave. hahahha. on monday morning got boss' msg saying she was very sick asked if i could go in for the week. went in on monday & wednesday to settle some stuff. yupyup tues had piano lesson. mom keeps saying if i stay at home any longer i'll start to rot.

rot
rot

hey we only get this once in a lifetime know? :)

aniwae, i did something different today! i went on a shopping spree after i dropped dan @ school :)
hit the mall

what did i buy after... an estimated 2hrs at the mall?
1. something from esprit
2. footwear
3. a necessity

haha so much for a shopping spree eh. but well its something different. find it kinda.. hard to spend money. no really. if u give me a $50 note and ask me to get whatever i want.. i think i'll end up saving it for rainy days.

and so i'll have a different ending to this post. a toast to today cos i'm rather happy :):):)

good friday

didn't manage to go for service at all. was helping mummy at children's ministry.. but twas fun! hahha. and lots of significance too. different stations to bring out certain stuff like.. the kinda whip used, the cross, the crown of thorns, the tomb, the praying at gethsemane, the crucifixtion at golgotha the place of the skull.

mom's station was the latter. and we arrived @ church 715am to set up and adorn our room with all those stuff. nails and all. then the kids started coming. at one part for each session mom wld ask 'em to write down one sin they struggle with and put it at the foot of the cross, or hammer it to the cross -literally hammer using nails and hammer duh. then after everything was over, during lunch,

mom: daniel what sin did you write just now?
dan: secret.
me: what sin did u write? tell me tell me.
dan: i wrote hatred.
mom: whoa who you hate? somebody at school?
dan: no lah.. i cannot tell you. its a secret.
me: who who?
dan: aiyah okay lah. i wrote hatred cos i hate satan mah!


saturday we spent it celebrating dan's burfdae. sakae @ nite and then over to uncle's house to watch dvd and cut cake and drink wine. haha. and we arrived home rather late.

easter sunday-today.
AS USUAL, we were the last one to arrive can so paiseh. 655am. we had to weave thru the palm trees and slowly tread our way. all because of SOMEBODY.

went to the book fair @ expo just now. so many books! i got myself... 3 books. and to my horror, there is a book #12 in the left behind series! all along i tot i'd finished the entire series (recall my earlier triumphant post please). this book.. its cover is quite.. breathtaking. different from the rest of the books which are black, this one is white and GOLD :) title? the glorious appearing. i'll read it right after i finish my current book.

and yes one more thing. i'm accepted into NTU. got the letter of acceptance ytd :) haha yeah thank God at least i'm accepted into somewhere!

because he lives
i can face tomorrow
because he lives
all fear is gone
and because i know
i know he holds the future
and life is worth the living
just because he lives

maundy thursday, and mom & dad's at 8pm service. its a significant service i must say. good friday's tmr, the day we remember Him dying for us 2006 years ago. thank u Jesus.

schooling people look forward to good friday cos they finally get a weekday off after a looooongggg time of no public hols. i guess for me it doesn't apply huh, since everyday is like a holiday :) so here comes good friday, the easter sunday. sunrise service - we always arrive there after the sun has risen and our torchlights are unnecessary. hahahah...

oh gosh all the noise is driving me crazy and i'm totally serious. i'm going mad. since i came home they've been going on and on and on and on..... my gosh. please stop it. all the clanging of cymbals. and the ting-tong ting-tong. k i know i shouldn't be like that.. its the last day of the funeral but.. argh. i'm really going crazy. its going on under the next block. hmm there seems to be so many wakes going on recently.. mom noted that too. or maybe its just that we've become more aware of them huh.

and so. did i already mention? i'm on 2 weeks leave. hahah... i'm having a break from work and i'll go in after 2 weeks. yupyup. and i'm still waiting for the results of my uni application. everyone keeps asking me when i'll know the results and i'm like... seriously, i dont know! yesyes.

and oh yes :) we now have 2 more additions in touche!! hahah. thank u Lord! both agreed on the same day hahah it made my day man.

because he lives i can face tomorrow
because he lives all fear is gone
and because i know, i know he holds the future
and life is worth the living
just because he lives

its been pouring over the weekend man. nice heavy rain :)

aniwae. on weds evening arnd 645pm. the office ceiling @ the front desk started leaking. and WHOA we had an in-house waterfall. in a matter of minutes the carpet was soaked and aunty kat claire milly judy i were sent running for huge green dustbins, pails, rags. and we were scampering around trying to save everything within our reach! hahaha.... t'was quite remarkable indeed.

and then today? the entire church.. no water supply. how on earth did we survive man. imagine all the little kindies toileting.. without water to flush. just a pail of water to throw down the bowl. hmm. and suddenly the importance of the dear thing we call h2o dawned on me.

i've finished my membership classes and i'll get confirmed on sunday :) at 8.30am service. mmhmm. working tmr from 9-1pm. then yam.

time passes so so so so fast! its holy week next week i CANNOT BELIEVE IT. time. stop.

so here i am once again. except that this time my mind's not blank. a million things are running thru my mind and i kinda dont know how to start.

the phonecall on thursday night changed everything. so i made plans to go down the next day after dropping daniel. reached at about 130pm and stayed till 10plus. went home. saturday went down after class and stayed overnight came back at 5 plus today.

to you: you did well, really. and i'm so proud of you. i told you once before, and i'll tell you again. i admire and respect you for all you've gone through. although we can all be there for you, i know that only you can truly understand how you feel. all we can ever do is imagine how it would be like, but i know nothing comes close. you didn't allow what God planned for you to shake your faith, and it takes so much trust to say " i know she's in your hands". you've done well and i'm proud of you. indeed, ashes will return to ashes, dust to dust. we have no idea how glorious she is now. get in touch with your emotions, friend. remember - if the eyes were the windows to the soul, then the tears are meant to cleanse.