i think i'm having an urge to write again.



maybe my next song shall be titled "in wonder"/"with wonder".
hmmms.

i kinda don't deserve a nice bouquet like this but i'm grateful i got one anyway :) thank you!

wanna write stuff but

a headache beckons sleep so

till another time i guess?

me: what if, despite everything, you decide not to do it? or... it just doesn't come to pass?
you (with a chuckle): then i guess... i'll just have to depend on God's grace to forgive me, for the rest of my life? yah...

and here we stand at the threshold of a new harvest. a project entirely faith-driven, there is no knowing what God will do with just one heart that is willing to defy logic, tradition and brave the storms to bring to reality what existed only in the mind. tomorrow brings nervousness and much excitement, but above all, an anticipation of greater things to come. i can't wait.



question to self: how long does self-blame last?


on expectations: the question is, can we really help not expecting things from people? does it not come naturally, esp with closer relationships? maybe/not.



on another note.

i totally made someone cry today.






:(

a whirlwind of events! even before the exams ended. just too much to write but if you've been with me through What'sUp, exams, bangkok, Fruitips, malacca and now musical, you'll know how i feel :)

its been a struggle, but God sent a great friend to lemme know i'm not alone.

and i've been feeling so blessed! magnified by the people at Fruitips camp who kept singing happy birthday to me, wishing me EACH TIME they saw me, the weird toast that erwin proposed, it was just awesome. and i remember that night when we were all sitting down to watch the skit vids, and all of a sudden partner (in the vid) pointed and said "happy birthday sophie!", it was just indescribable :) and with each vid i just felt more and more blessed :)

and i often think, what did i ever do to deserve all these. really. i'm just me, but God has blessed me so much. and i really felt like i was the most blessed person in the world. and up till now, i feel so! i guess not just with the birthday thing, but with the song too. whatever i have written is my gift to Him, and what He does with it is His to decide.

i thank God for friends :) (thank you friends for all your birthday wishes!!) for opportunities, for family, for love, for hope, for joy.

thank God for JS (pss they have a new vid!)

i thank God that bp's back! my one and only bp.

and i thank God for shimei's lovely gift, and more so for her.

有些事我只想要对你说

因你比任何人都爱我

痛苦从眼中流下

我知道你为我擦



在早晨我也要来对你说

主耶稣今天我为你活

所需要的力量你天天赐给我

你恩典够我用