then sings my soul, my saviour God to thee. how great thou art, how great thou art.you know there are a few rare moments in your entire life, when the world seems to be rushing past at your left at right, but then you seem to be stuck exactly where you are. and that was what i felt on saturday night after checking my sem4 results.
i was just so so stunned and english seems so... incapable of describing my feelings then. honestly the moment i hit
ENTER and the table of results flashed before me, my pupils involuntarily enlarged and stared harder. and i was stuck there for a few moments before i started screaming & pulling my mom in to see.
like, hello! its the first time i'm taking 3 level 3000 mods and its the best sem results so far. i was so trembling & thumping before checking results, procrastinating till the last possible moment when partner urged me to just go check. starstruck, totally.
now let me clarify. its definitely not the best that a person can get. i didn't get 5As or sth please. but i totally didn't expect, much less deserve what i got. pointed tips with pluses next to them, i havent seen them before. so even tho i dont think my results are top-notch, this very present from Him i cannot keep to myself. all glory really, really must go back to Him.
that's why i know, for sure, that a few months down the road, years later even, the same starstruck feeling will still be felt. because its never sth that i can achieve.
despair in my weaknesses is much healthier than misplaced pride in my strengths. i know that firsthand. because the 2 modules that i was the most worried and really-dont-know-how, were the ones i did best in. God, it could only be You.
then sings my soul,
my saviour, God, to thee.
how great thou art.
how great, thou art.