i didn't play well on sunday. that's what i think. i'm getting from bad to worse. what am i doing?

had maths test ytd & chem test today. both were sucky. i made a horrible mistake for maths. unforgivable. after some calculation i got a fraction 1/6. but when i copied it down... i wrote 1/16. there you go. 15/30 marks gone. wonderful? no. chem test. forget it. the horrible organic compounds they want us to deduce. those monstrous hydrocarbon chains.

high tension.

i am just like any other person
i have needs too
but who cares right?
who cares.
i'm sick of it.
really.
what makes me different
nothing.
i need what you need
kin yew and shaan reminded.
you never know when you're gonna go Home
if i were to die tomorrow
will it make any difference?
what would you say at my funeral?
or would you choose not to speak at all.
if you can tell yourself that you bothered
without your conscience pricking you
then
i thank you

and for once it might be grand
to have someone understand

this week has been tiring. din even know it was that tiring till i found myself sleeping and sleeping... but thank God its over. BUT. next week will be worse. tests on monday n tues. and all that tuto!! sigh.

pw results came out yesterday. very surprisingly... i got a 1 !!!! *yaay* that made my day... realli realli... it was a hell of a time with that pw. can just make u cry. all that written reports thrown back at you... the late nights... the annotations... the re-thinking.. its all over. with a ONE. yeah man. its the only realli good thing that happened for a long time. thank u Lord!! our school did better than many others tho.

playing for worship tmr. seems like a long time since i last played. *thinks* yep. everyone's rather amateur-ish. and the overall sound isn't realli good. but its gonna b our best that we're gonna offer up to Him. God help me.

strength and wisdom is what i need.

rage.. rage.. against the dying of the light

nattie came back dis morn :) *yaay* i'll get to see her tmr in church. so sorry i dint go get u at the airport nattie.. i was doin hw till 2am saturday morning.. discrete random variables can be fun.
today went swimming. havent done that in a long time now. but i'm still gonna miss the pool. miss looking out and seeing the blue waters. its a good feeling u get when u swim. suddenly u feel carefree. and breathe out deeply.
other than that i realli dont know what else to say. nothing's happening. i'm just trying to finish hw on time and understand topics. and another thing. studying keeps your mind away from everything else.

do more homework to numb yourself

okies. da weekend went rather okay larh. managed to finish abit of hw here n there. din get to revise anything at all. oh wells... aniwaes. from this term on... life is gonna be rough. scream.
every alternate mondays extra maths lect
every tuesday 2 maths lect
tuesday afternoons chemistry extra lesson
every friday bio remedial

how?
i've gotta hang on for.. 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 more months. double scream. and after that i'll be flying with the wind.

oh yes. i think i can be a philosopher!! wenfeng asked me for help in her compo. and i thought for awhile n went like.. "to treat all men equally is to be blind to their needs". ok. sounds logical. then she wrote it down. and said that novelist paulo coelho quoted that. *hahhahs* am i good or what. ans: or what.

danny boi went for a neighbourhood walk last friday with da school. cos their next topic for english is something to do wif people around us.how fun is that man!! like... they all walked from school to interchange to the mall to stadium and i dunno where.. but gosh it must have been fun! but all he said was 'tired'.. hahas.. din even get to do dis kinda things in pri school lor.

aniwaes... just wanna thank ALL O YOU for all ur encouragements... tags.. blahblah.. *yaay* haha it means loads to me! sorry if at times i looked horrible.. but yeah.

you can try as hard as you can to make someone happy
but it wont change anyting
cos you're not the one he/she's waiting for
but when you're the right one
say anything. do anything.
and u'll work wonders