okay. got back prelim results. mixed feelings. made improvements for some. and did terribly for some. i failed bio. and failed my GP essay. mr lee was being very kind when he termed my failure an "accident". sigh. and today while he was going thru the essays... he said sth like.. "sophie! come.. you make a very good case study. what happened?" haha. i was already prepared to answer it. but thank God i still pass GP overall. as for bio. i dunno what happened.. i never do. its always the same after bio exams.

on a lighter note. i finally passed a chemistry exam!! on the dot. first time in my JC life i passed a chem exam. oh well. jumped 2 grades. and i got back my B for maths. got B for block test... AO for mid years. B for prelims. do i see a trend... eh... nooooo!!! argh. oh well. 5 weeks left. the great countdown. sigh.

its scary how everyone is workin so hard now. everyone. listen to this. for maths.. 18 got A for mid years. now. 143 got A. 205 got F for mid years. 22 got F this time around. goodness. aren't the numbers like.. totally appalling? i nod in fear.

this 2 months i feel like a weakling. i'm physically weaker than i've ever been in 2 years. or rather all my life so far. seriously. i'm never fully well for more than a week since August. this sucks. i'm down again. didn't go school on monday and tuesday. and i'm on antibiotic once more. was recovering well as of yesterday.. till... i sat down to eat
i dish the fried rice that mom bought back.. onto my plate. place a scoop hungrily into my mouth.
"mommy... the fried rice spicy one ah?!"
"oh yah... forgot to tell you. i bought sambal fried rice."
that's it. this morning i awoke with the funny throat again. dah!

and ppl. listen to this. i took 50 minutes to get from tampines interchange home. a full 50 minutes. there was a MAJOR jam in the interchange. major i tell you. we just sat there... as the bus crawled its way out. imagine... taking 30 minutes to move from the bus stand out to the roads. we nearly died. but i guess it was a memorable birthday for xueli :) before that went chuwen's house. played pool most of the time while the majority were in the room playing bridge. oh wells. better go.
and buck up for As.

alright . prelims are over.. and i'm taking a break. ask me how it went? it was NOT easy at all. there was totally no time for chem mcq.. i shaded so many answers without even reading the question.
bio mcq? terrible. they seem to take pleasure in making us read long paragraphs of explanations before answering totally HUH questions. what's the catch man? sigh.
maths? i dont know. i could have done better.
GP? goodness i was sniffing and coughing away the whole 3 hrs in the air con hall (sorry those around me) u cant expect anything logical and sensible to come outta my brain. i cant even remember the essay qn i attempted now. and yes. chem paper 3. i left 2 questions totally untouched. which means 20 marks gone. 1 qn from physical chem... another from biochem. wow?

and yes. this morning i woke up with a start. and what was in my mind? a particular chemisty mcq question and the answer just flowed so logically. and it suddenly dawned on me that i the answer i shaded was so wrong!! ah! to tink it came to me when i wasn't even consciously thinking about it. sigh.

this is all so silly. and my complexion is more terrible than ever. all those things popping up everywhere. big... medium.. small. the mirror shows such a terrible sight!!

on to another topic. i received my grade 7 results last nite. i passed :) thank God man. 114 :) before this i told myself i'd be more than contented if i got at least 110. haha.. thank God :)

okay. one hurdle down. the next one? the REAL THING. no more joking and testing. As!! in 6 weeks. scary eh. oh wells.

into your hands. i commit again. with all i am. i trust in you.

i'm sorry i cant be perfect
i thought you understood
happiness never lasts
there's no point in trying to explain
i'm just sorry
that i cant be perfect

okay. here i am. sitting here. sniffing. breathing through my mouth. i am sick. again. can u beat that?! before i can fully recover from my previous illness.. i'm down again. argh. and GP prelims are 2 days away :( mom bought me ginseng and luohanguo to drink.. those bottled ones u can just buy from the yochaitiam (chinese medicinal hall). thanks mommy i'm finishing the ginseng one and its getting more and more bitter :-

hope i'll recover by monday. else the aircon in da hall will make me cough non-stop and i wun be able to think. sigh.

havent been studying as much as i should. die. still got so much bio to memorise and maths to practice and chem to revise. can i just scream??

anyway, superstar finals was last night. kelly won kelvin in 4/5 of the sections. i tink kelly's last song was so well sung lah. realli :) good for her, she's got a record with universal music!
ps. derrick rocks. :D

kk. study?