its finally friday. haikx... i'm feelin rather tired. very tired as a matter of fact. and i've been rather upset too... cos of some thingys lahx. yupx.... oh well... tmr goin sentosa wif family for family day organised by church. tink its gonna be fun. haha.... yeah. feel like mugging my troubles away. i'm so tired. oh yah. dis sunday usherin both for FL and for service again. yupx. dunno why so fast.
Dear God....

Just let me say how much i love you
let me speak of your mercy and grace
just let me live in the shadow of your beauty
let me see you face to face
and the earth will shake as your word goes forth
and the heavens will tremble and fall
but let me say how much i love you
o my saviour my Lord and friend

just let me hear your finest whispers
as you gently call my name
and let me see your power and your glory
let me feel your spirit's flame
let me find you in the desert
till this sand is holy ground
and i am found completely surrendered
to you my Lord and friend

so let me say how much i love you
with all my heart i long for you
for i am caught in this passion of knowing
this endless love i've found in you
and the depth of grace, the forgiveness found
to be called a child of God
ust makes me say how much i love you
o my saviour. my Lord and friend.

hmmz... rather happy wif the amount of maths i did today. hahhaha.... yeapx. did 6 qns. (not parts of a qn hor...) its like... sitting down and drawing graph after graph... crazy things man... but it gets quite fun after awhile. hope i'm correct lor... if not i'll hafta erase everything!!....
tmr... a start of another tiring week.... i feel so physically fit man... its like... running 2.4km at least twice a week. gosh... and wif all the silly push ups and sit ups and dips and shuttle runs... hahaha.... goodness.
just wanna share a poem by russell kelfer i read in "purpose driven life"...
you are who you are for a reason
you're part of an intricate plan.
you're a precious and perfect unique design,
called God's special woman or man.

you look like you look for a reason.
our God made no mistake.
he knit you together within the womb,
you're just what he wanted to make.

the parents you had were the ones he chose.
and no matter how you may feel,
they were custom-designed with God's plan in mind.
and they bear the Master's seal.

NO, that trauma you faced was not easy.
and God wept that it hurt you so.
but it was allowed to shape your heart
so that into his likeness you'll grow.

you are who you are for a reason
you've been formed by the Master's rod.
you are who you are, beloved.
because there is a God.

dear God... please grant me strength for another week. thank u . Amen.
wishing all u ppl a great week ahead yeah.... God bless....

went for canned food donation drive today @ marine parade. was rather interesting and enriching lahx. but there were 2 particular experiences i will NEVER forget can.. gosh.
kk. number one. door is wide open. gate is locked. a lady sits at the sofa facing the door. she's carrying a baby. " good afternoon... we are volunteers collecting canned food for the elderly... would you like to contribute some? biscuits will do fine too... even toilet paper" and then halfway we realised something. that lady wasn't just carrying her baby. she was BREASTFEEDING the baby. goodness. so traumatic! how cld she?? gosh. saw everything. bwahhahahhaha
number two. we stood in front of the door in wide open wonder. the whole door was splashed with paint of different colours.. and the paint was until the floor lor. obvious it was some loanshark handicraft lor. so obviously we skipped that house. scary man. eeks.
kk. so much for my experiences.
just came back from dinner that took forever to come. aniwaes... they were having some pasar malam there and there were kiddy rides.... so danny boi sat 2 rides... hahaha.... so farnie.. like what other kiddies do... everytime pass by us will go waving "hello!" haha.... but of course after a few rounds he got tired and just sat there letting the thing revolve. hahahahha.... yeah.
the next ride was like a train ride... but was pandas... and their eyes were "demonic" in adriel language. haha... was not lah. he kept telling danny to pinch the panda's nose. lamer. so cute man danny... see the nice cute smile of joy on his face... hahahah.... so nice.

TGIF. thank God its friday. realli manx. tired like what. next fri got chem test. and today we had a talk wif principal. and i tell u .... after the talk i was like.. what the... its so hard to even pass an A lvl subj lor. what on earth am i doin here? goodness. when it ended linda and i were like... suntec tower what... i take tower 3.. you leh? goodness. -i have no words left to speak-
aniwaes today we had 3 DJs from dongli 88.3FM in our sch... was so cool man.. they're COOL ppl alrite. yeahx. at least brightened up a lil of my day lahx. me the zombie. they gave a v interesting "talk" .... v nice. yah.
PW in A lvl is totally.. horrendous can. and the thing is... it constitutes 20% of your entry to the uni! gosh. have to do well lor. but its so serious and so hard! so unlike sec sch... play play... PW = fun time that kind. now its totally... goodness. the topics are like..." and aspect of society that is evolving" ...." how things are measured.... eg beauty..." goodness. i'm just so dead. and the grp is like.. totally kinda at a loss lor. we argued during lunch can. gosh. but the grp is rather nice lah. cos 2 of de ppl heng heng are those i hang arnd wif... so not so bad.
i'm dead tired. and that thick bio text in my room isn't helping. i feel compelled to read it... but... dun feel like reading it. bleahx. kk.
nitenite one and all.... wishing you have a better week than the one i had!

hi ppl. forced to come online to clear mail. today friend told me wanted send mail but inbox full.. aha... really man.. 100% liao. yupx. so mite as well blog too. really bz nowadays lor. come home so late... then gotta settle all the hw... dun even have time to self-revise. by thursday every week i'll be walking wif eyes half closed and by friday i'll be zombiing arnd sch. yupx. tmr got badminton too. really wanna read bio text.. but no time lor. and next week got mole concept test. i'm dead can. alrite. i urgently need more space in my room! its like.. when i wanna do work i transfer de pile of files and text and tys to my bed... then when i wanna sleep i transfer it back to the chair. goodness lor! .... whoa... gonna have alot of files lor. 2 for each subj.. gosh. kk.
yest all o a sudden during chem lecture mr lim said.." now i can see so many ppl looking at the back of their eyelids.. dunno what so interesting man." and we were like... huh? what's he talking... then after that he burst out laughing. looking at the back of your eyelids = sleeping! hahahhahah.... what a farnie way to put it.
alrite. gtg. tmr got 5 periods in a row lor... 4 hrs+ of continuous lessons! i'm gonna be dead boy. no life. no life at all.
i'm just looking forward to june hols! .... but then again... i guess i'll be bz mugging for july's mid yr exams huh.

i'm feelin very horrible now. i'm tired. i'm stressed. i'm sad. wateva. just wateva. leave me alone.
this week has been exhaustingly tiring. sleep is becoming so so precious. what on earth is a 16 year old doin mugging away. i'm particularly angry about PE today. very angry. for a start they just wanted us to have PE at 5pm. then we went to the gallery and waited for PE teacher. after waiting for 10 mins he came out of the staff room and asked what our class was. 204. fine. then he went over to 401 which was beside us. then he took their attendance and brought them down for PE. and we just sat there and waited. apparently he doesn't even know...after taking us for 3 weeks... that we were his class too. then we just sat there. after that we realised we were de onli class left not down at the track so we went down and there he was. then he "realised" he was supposed to take us too. so off we went for one warm up round. then came back reported to him for one round circuit. then we were supposed to report back to him to let him start us off on our 5 rounds. but when we went back.. where on earth was he? he jus disappeared lor. he had the responsibility to stay there okay. then ms choy the HOD told us to start running first. so we started. then after about one and a half rounds we saw him. finally. but we continued running cos havent finshed 5 rounds.. obviously. he saw us and didn't say anyting. he just stood there and as we ran past him he shouted out our timings. apparently he doesn't know we're ppl of 204 either. wateva. then after that i tink he finally decided to wake up. so after running 3 rounds he called and gathered all of us back. all panting. tired. then he scolded us for not waiting for him to come back. for starting without his permssion. so he told us to run another 3 rounds. we were like... mr tang! we just finished running 3 rounds! we're all so tired now lor! and he was like... that's your punishment. and so we had to run. that moment i was so fed up i didn't even look at him and xinyong and i just ran our anger out. how can he display such incompetence in MJ. i hate it.
so much has happened during the week. i'm too tired to type it all out. but all i have to say is... i'm tired. leave me alone.

haikx. thought i'll better come check mail today... throughout de week mayb no chance to come online at all. alrite. aniwaes woke up today at 6 plus cos its sunrise service day! hahahhaha..... yeah....
died and rose again...
died and rose again...
Jesus died and rose again ain ain....
yeah.... the empty tomb... thank u for redeeming me. alrite. erm... to all da antioch gals (and guys)... thankx for letting me haf such a fun time cycling wif u all... though was rather short lah huh. yupx... had to leave them at da point when they were starting on the part i was lookin forward to! games... yeah. aniwaes... when i left tt time jill cor and ros were like... suddenly shouted " byebye chio bu!" and i was like... where can i hide my face man.... wanted to crash and fall! goodness... big time liars they all.... haikx.. then had to ride back all the way by myself... the journey wasn't quite as long and tedious as i'd expected it to be...but was tiring lor. then when everything finis was onli like.. 11 o clock.haha... so early. kk. so now everyone in da hse is just sleeping... esp mama... since nv wake up so early since last year sunrise... hahahha... yupx. keke. gotta go back to work AGAIN. and i cant do coordinate geometry lor. first qn and i was like ??? yah.
alrite. to one and all... happy easter... btw easter isn't abt nice bunnies and cute little eggs in a basket hor. hahhaha.....

dot. dot. dot. feels a long time since i was here typing. the week has been long... dready... tiry.. everyday is so long.. where got time for hw. so much has happened during the week. lazy to type it out. haikx. now i've got loads of hw to do. i'm dying... plus gotta write testimony for EG. hmmx.. and tmr got lecture in sch. gosh. so dead when i come home everyday. like walking zombie. goodness. kk.
yest went for maundy thurs... the nite when Jesus prayed till dawn... then today went for Good Friday service. the worship was rather powerful lor. sang all those crucifixtion songs... above all... blabla....
thank you Lord... for taking away my sins this way...
i'm held amazed... speechless at the thought
crucified. laid behind a stone
you lived to die.
rejected and alone.
like a rose trampled on the ground.
you took the fall.
and thought of me.
above all.

goodness... so tired today... and de whole class was so upset abt our time table lor... haikx... its like... we end so late everyday not like some other classes... fri 1235 can go home liao... we're always the latest lor....
mon.. 4.45pm
tues.. 5.35pm
wed. 2.15pm..(everyone released that time cos its cca day)
thurs.. 5.35pm
fri... 5.50pm....
goodness... if its not torture its torture. how to survive one whole year liddat lor! and worse still... i've got my FAV teacher for a certain subj lor... i'm totally dead.
and today's PE doesn't rock either. at first teacher said "run one round warm up.... then do circuit one round".. then we were all like mumuring..."wow so good today ah...." then after that he continued..."then after circuit report back to me... we're gonna run another 5 rounds..." MY GOSH. that moment i just wanted to .... nth nth.. was so tired after that needless to say.. but was still okay lah.
today was one of de rare days in jc life when i fell asleep in the MRT lor. but woke up in time lah. that's just me. hahahah.... and i tink i'm gonna fail GP if i cont' wif this teacher lor. he says it was his first day in MJ... was transferred from acjc to teach relief here. gosh lor. they actually made that old man teach us instead of the young bubbly lovely colin? goodness.... that 2 periods were just torturous can... he speaks NOT like a GP teacher.... haikx.. help. help. the time table just doesn't rock can. from today on if u guys and gals see me zombieing around... u know why. and yah... our GP teacher says PASS UP INSTEAD OF HAND IN! cant stand it man.... i've got anne ang's blood running in me liao.... :|
tmr another lllloooonnnggg day... wonder how i'll take it. gonna sleep @ 10 tonite. gosh. cant wait for friday.. or rather thurs nite.

haha... today as i guessed... it was RATHER fun!... haha... sang nice songs.. but de worship session was quite short lahx. yeah.. and they wanted to learn the "better than life" FL dance!... cool... i tell you..every member of the team is so pro lor.. i mean.. they haf to b rite.. haha. aniwaes... jill found her ou xiang.. the keyboardist and fell in love with her hair colour. and the pastor alvin is so hip and so young and cool lor. he's got happening shoes too! haha... totally doesn't look like a pastor AT ALL. alrite.
aniwaes... hope mui enjoyed herself. yeah. this week is Holy week. the week where jesus prayed till his blood dropped like sweat... when he carried the cross all the way for me.. when he pierced his hands and hung there to die for me... and when he rose on the third day.. again for me. the thought makes me wanna go back in time... to the day when he was tortured for me... and stand by him and shout "dont do this.. please dont.. i'm not worthy... put down the cross....." but he loves me too much you see... yeah... thank you.. and yesterday during EG each of us was given a nail... a rather long and big one... and looking at it... sheena and i were like..."i'm gona cry anytime" yah.... seeing it... feeling it... it all seemed so real...
alrite.. tmr... a start of a new week... yupx... but fri is a hol!... so shiok.. love it. but it was the day that he died for me... so... hmm...
thank you for the cross Lord...
thank you for the price you paid
bearing all my sin and shame
in love you came... and gave amazing grace...
the darling of heaven crucified...
worthy is the Lamb....

haha.... mui's coming tmr to FL... cos i told her the truthmin band (TRAC band) is coming... yeah... haha... kinda excited too. hmmz... tmr ushering some more... hahah.. tink it'll be overall fun. yupxyupx!
dis week... haf to write EG testimony for judy... hha... yupx.. tink will have rather alot to write if i realli get to sitting down and penning it. yah.. alrite.. nth much to write today lahx.
hve a nice saturday nite one and all....

whoohoo.... friday nite totally rocks.. have been waiting for tonite for ... 6 days.. hahaha.. its de most relaxed nite of da week... love it ... yest had badminton till 7.30pm.. then today ended lessons at 5.50 lor.. totally shecked out can... wanna sleep well tonite!
aniwaes... yest had a realli fun GP first lecture... he totally rocks can... ahhahha... he's so lame and farnie... he's a fiction writer... then he says he comes up with funny things... like when he cooks tuna in tom yum.. he'll call the dish sth like... tuna tom in lava lake.... bwhahahhahahahh!... i nearly died laughing my lungs out can!..... that WAS farnie!!! totally....
today had 3 periods in a row free... so went out lunch wif da usual gang.. to west plaza..then on the way while walking back to sch... it started pouring!... then all o us started running for our lives.... then that silly meng yang... strolled wif his bottle of apple and aloe vera juice... and casusally plucked a leaf while walking... and used it to cover his head... goodness lor! i laughed... we laughed like nuts and bananas and crackers and squirrels can!... bwahhahahhaa...... so farnie.. that big guy taking a small pathetic leaf as cover? hahahah.... too funny...
gonna enjoy tonite... have a great nite's sleep.... goodnite... one and all....